On that day in 1980 - 13 July

I was living at the Manor in Hollywood, a big old house on Leland Way by Hollywood High. I was still on my "gap year" and had a full-time delivery driving job in Gardena; I worked 11-hour days and a four-day week so made the most of my three-day weekends.

I had an off and on weird relationship with Michael, the drummer of Ivy & the Eaters. In the beginning he pursued me ardently, perhaps because I was Ella of Ella and the Blacks. Well, he seemed to enjoy introducing me to everyone as that. If you remember our biggest "hit", Otis (My Boyfriend's Gonna Whoop Your Ass But Good), I wrote it, jokingly, about him; he wanted to be in Ella and the Blacks (and he was, very briefly) and took the name Otis. Anyway we actually did not have too much in common but he was nice to look at. In fact he was, by a long mile, the prettiest boy I ever went out with. I was so amazed that he wasn't gay!

I don't think I was usually this insecure but my head was in a weird place that year. This was near the end of our time together (which began when I met him in April.)

I don't remember this Bonnie chick at all and I'm not sure I ever saw the acid-donor from Devon again either.

Daddy-O is Frankie Marley; he was ten years older than most of us and didn't approve of anyone really with whom I went out. Sometimes I should have listened to him!

13 July 1980

Ivy & the Eaters were at Madame Wong's West this evening and Michael put me on the guest list. Upstairs this time. Oh, I'd gone over to Daddy-O's - swimming - and he said because of what Michael had did [not getting me on the guest list for a gig the other night] that I shouldn't even go. But I wanted to see him.

I thought they would be on first so I got there early. Went in and immediately saw Michael and he hugged me and said I looked great and Simon did too. [Simon looked great too!? ;-) ] He was talking to these two girls who were going to see Pearly Gates afterwards and he wanted to go. Then we went in the other room and he asked if I wanted to go backstage. It was the Men's Room! Jackson was back there. I stayed there a long time - I didn't leave when Michael did for some reason then I watched the equipment in the room for Jackson for a while. I wanted a drink so bad! [No rider for these kinds of gigs of course!] They found out that they had to play third and Charlie got all mad and kicked in the door and made a hole in the wall.

When I finally went out Michael was sitting with some girl so I didn't go over - don't know why. The what's-his-name band was okay; he was the guy from Phil Seymour's band. [Hmmm, not sure who this was...]

I went over and sat by Michael and that girl was talking to someone and that geek who was really really good looking but such a geek was talking to me, but when I wasn't overly responsive he started talking to that girl (Bonnie), leaning over me and I guess he fancied her cause he kept putting his arm around her. But afterwards I guess she kinda got away from him. I wished she hadn't.

Some jerk was bugging me and guessed my age as 25! I screamed at him and complained to Michael and he said I didn't look too innocent and I got mad at him too! That weird girl (from Devon I think) who Jackson knew gave me a hit of acid!! I gathered  (correctly) that Michael would 'shun' it.

Rode down in the elevator with the equipment and Michael took and squeezed my hand and I felt more secure.

Downstairs I discovered the ball bearings (what did I do with them?!) and the time clock; I was gonna punch someone in at 2 am but Simon stopped me.

We all went to the 'dressing room'. Jackson's old girlfriend (Miss Vogue) and her new boyfriend were there and they were talking about buying a bottle (they only got paid $17 for playing!) and I wondered what Bonnie was still doing there...

Then when they were leaving Michael kissed me goodbye and said he was going with Simon. I asked if he wanted to go with me and he said no, he'd just go with Simon. Then I saw the girl went with them. Well, her friend had left so they had to give her a ride home.

But anyway I decided it was over between me and Michael. Why didn't I stick to it? [I wrote this entry a bit later I guess.]

Some jerks followed me almost all the way home and I turned around to park by the gate and right then Shawn [Stern] and Brother Kevin [two of my housemates at the Manor] came up. I told them and they said they'd get them and for me to go out there as 'bait'... The jerks left though.

I guess they cheered me up a tiny bit.

Ivy & the Eaters