On that day in 1977 - 18 July

Still on a family road trip, having strange dreams...


18 July 1977

We went to stay at a cabin. It wasn't dumpy - it was nice.

I had a weird dream last night about Steven H. It was in the fall and I had started school and his girlfriend was in my Russian class. So I came in and he was sitting in the front. I sat in the back. Then he comes back to me after a minute and I saw part of a letter that his girlfriend had written to him. She said something about "our baby" and she was moving to Russia for some reason and she wanted him to come see their baby when it was born.

I had written some stuff about him in a notebook and he goes, "Let me see what you're written about me!" I got the notebook back from him luckily, and all he had seen was some picture of him with "Big Lips" written by it. Then he left. His girlfriend had been looking back at us when we were fighting over the notebook. After he left, I found a note he had slipped into it. It listed all these weird things he would like: a falafel, a comfortable new pair of pajamas, Gleem toothpaste [Whatever happened to Gleem?] etc. And it said if anyone brought him any of these things it would "win his heart" and he wrote to come to his apartment (he lives with his parents!!) that night cause his girlfriend was going somewhere. I saw him somewhere else too, but I forgot the rest.

Anyway, it was so boring this afternoon (it was raining and I love rain but it was all muddy and stuff) that I fell asleep for three hours! This is the dream I had then:

Mom had a baby and I would always insult it and say how gross it was. Then this friend of hers walks in holding a baby and I started saying how ugly it was and stuff and the lady goes, "This is my baby." I go: "No offence to you, lady, but all babies look alike and are the same." Then Cathy had a baby. And she was gonna have like a christening party for it. (I don't know who the father was - it never crossed my mind in the dream to ask.) Oh, before all this we were on the last part of our vacation and we got a call that Kristin had died. We just kept on our vacation. I pretended it wasn't true.

Anyway, now I was home and talking to Susan and Cathy in a booth at Swenson's [ice cream parlor] about Cat's baby's celebration. This girl was going to host it but Susan goes, "Oh, she can't - she was just trying to get a hold of you." Then Susan says I could have it and before I could utter a word of protest, Cat says OK, and they left. And I was supposed to go out somewhere with Tiger that night too!

So all these geeks (like at Cat's going-away party) came to my house. And all these people from my past, who Cathy never knew, too!! I'd stare at them for a long time, and as soon as it came to me who someone was, they would turn into another person! Anyway, this fat gross jock was bugging me. (I think it was the jerk from Mike Nolte's party.) And there were all these guys in the room, and I dared any of them to kick  him in the balls! So this one guy, I forgot who, got up and poured acid in his eye!!! It all fizzed out. It was SO GROSS!!! [I think I had been watching too many horror films...]

It was part my current house, part my old house, and part no house I'd ever seen before! There was this really strange balcony and all the geeks were being rowdy and the cops came. This one cop said, "Can I see you alone in the bedroom?" and I was scared he was gonna rape me or something, and I wouldn't be able to do anything, cause he had a gun! But then Cathy came up and explained everything. There was the greatest food there - that's almost all I did during the party - eat, and hide food to eat later. I hid a chocolate cake and was about to eat a piece when I woke up. I was pissed!

So I was gonna call Tiger collect tonight but I couldn't find a phone booth, It would have cost enough anyway!

From the Dream Dictionary site:

To see a baby in your dream signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings.  Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted. (Not sure about ugly babies though!)
To dream about the death of a loved one suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what you like about them. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, the dream indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life anymore. In particular, to dream about the death of your living parents indicates that you are undergoing a significant change in your waking life. Your relationship with your parents has evolved into a new realm. If you dream about the death of a child, then it implies that you need to let go of your immaturity and start being more serious. As your child reaches certain milestones and grows into an adult, dreaming of their death may be symbolic of their own self-discovery, transition and transformation into a new stage of life.

To dream of a baby shower suggests that you are welcoming a new start. You are given a chance to start over again and do things differently this time around. You have a new found faith in life itself. (Well, OK, but what about baby showers for which you are the unwilling host?)

To see or dream that you are on a balcony refers to your desire to be seen and noticed.  You are searching for prestige and higher status. It may also mean that you are on your way up the social ladder. If the balcony is clean, then it indicates that you are looked up to by others. If the balcony is old, then it suggests that your public image is in need of repair. Alternatively, the balcony could signify your ambivalence regarding a situation. You are feeling torn or undecided. (Not sure what that situation was toward which I was ambivalent...)

To see chocolate in your dream signifies love, celebration and self-reward. It also suggests that you may be indulging in too many excesses and need to practice some restraint.

To eat chocolate in your dream indicates that you are embracing your own sensuality.